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you said you had to get things off your chest. then you said that you never loved me, you only thought you did and maybe we should take some time to think things over. you thought i was angry with you but really, i was angry at myself; angry for not seeing through you, believing all your lies, angry for actually letting you in then letting myself get burned. and mostly angry because i was actually willing to give you some time if it meant there was the slightest chance you might eventually come back to me.

when i met you i didn't think that months later, it would still be you on my mind. infact, back then, not even for a second did i think we'd be together, but now i wouldnt have it any other way. it works- i talk, you listen. i start an argument, you tell me you love me. if i walk away, you catch up with me. you're too good for me but, if you let me, i'll spend every day trying to be just as good for you.

every beat of my heart, was for you. every single beat. back then, the problem was that i could never find the words to tell you how i felt about you and now i cant stop thinking of ways i could have told you, ways that might have made things work out differently.  

isn't it funny how things change? now you're the last person i'd run to with a problem, the person who's voice i never hear nevermind before i go to sleep. i try not to regret but its hard when things ended so badly. if i could tell you one thing it would be that you never failed to make me happy.

why is it that you can tell if a guy likes another girl but you can never tell when he likes you?

letting go for any kind of reason is a tough choice to make and even tougher to do. but letting go when you know he loves you? pratically impossible.

even though at the moment, we arent on the best of terms and, if i'm honest, i can't see us being friends again, i want you to know that i wish you well. and that without you, i wouldnt be the person i am today.

he looks at you and smiles and you wonder if the smile was something he couldnt say.

you say that to you, i am perfect. well to me, you are even more.

i dont have anything to offer you except my heart. we would be happy for a while, but you would be happier if you moved on and forgot about me. it was like you were colour in my black and white world, like i was on mute and you turned up the volume. it was like i was invisible and you saw me.

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